Oh my, don't you just want to hug her?! What an amazing, brave little girl. I can't believe all she has been through the past week. As we were driving to ABQ for her surgery I had some scary thoughts about her procedure and the fact that there could be complications. She is very tiny and tiny babies do not always do that well in these types of situations. As the doctors took my sweet baby back all I could do was pray. I told myself I probably wouldn't see her for about 3 hours (the surgery was supposed to take 2 so I figured give or take a little time at the beginning and the end) and during that time all I could do was lean on the one I knew was stronger than anything I was going through. The words I read reminded me that I must trust:
- God's sovereignty and timing for my life
- God's method of giving me what I need
- God's provision from the fullness of His love
- God's heart being good and unchanging
What a great lesson as my baby was in surgery. Well, she did so well it only took 2 hours from the time they took her back to the time I was able to see her again. The next few days were a learning experience for all of us. I was constantly amazed by her strength and so thankful for God's protection over her.
A week and a few days later we were headed back to Bloomfield, and as I could hear my little girl talking in the back seat I was overwhelmed by God's grace and love He has shown me. It was like I was bringing home a brand new child. I had spent her entire life being thrown up on everyday. We constantly have blankets and burp rags covering surfaces of our house. I have made covers for her car seat and the straps for easy cleaning. This had become such a part of our lives that it was normal to hear Madelynn yell, "Throw up!" from the living room. It was such a surreal feeling that I just found tears rolling down my checks. I can't even imagine the things God has in store for Annika and I am so grateful to be part of it. I feel overcome with love and gratitude for the people who have been praying for us and who love Annika and our family so much.
It is amazing that there is no throw up in our daily life, Annika has already returned to taking her milk orally, she is gaining weight, and I am sure we will be starting back on food very soon. God is good, his timing is just right (even for surgery days), and his love is greater that I can even imagine.
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