Getting Ready for Christmas

Oh my gosh, I can't believe how grown-up she is getting. She looks like such a big girl hanging up her 1st Christmas ornament. It just amazes me how blessed we are.

And of course she is always keeping us on our toes. I guess hanging her ornament on one of the lower branches just wasn't good enough. So, in true Madelynn fashion, she climbed up on anything she could find.



Now this has trouble written all over it.



Madelynn with her special reindeer that Uncle Tim made her. Each of us have one from our "Grandma" Mabel's husband from when we were growing up. Then dad started to make each of the grandkids one. Well, of course my little girl wasn't going to have one, but my wonderful family took care of that. My Uncle Tim saw to it that Madelynn had her very own special reindeer. We are just so lucky to have such a great family that thinks about others and cares about the little things.

Cutting Christmas trees

Aww, mom and sisters

and sisters (plus Madelynn because she had landed in the mud so she has to stay in the backpack)


Lodge group - we always try to get a picture with all the kids and adults and it is crazy. The kids were playing in the snow so we decided to just take one with the adults (again, Madelynn had to stay in the backpack - I am so glad Whit reminded me to bring it!)

Finally Bruce got her to put on her mittens, her hands were freezing

Give me the cookie and back away...I think she gets this look from her dad.

Our family Christmas picture

Another year cutting Christmas trees was a great success. We had quite a group this year. It has been so great to have Meghan so close that she has been able to go with us the last 2 years; we are really going to miss them next year (we don't' know where they are going yet, but I sure it won't be close). This was our 2nd year with out dad and it was still strange, but happy because we were together. I always feel very close to him and peaceful when we are up there. Having Uncle Larry and Aunt Pat makes it so special. I know my dad would be so thankful and proud of Uncle Larry for stepping into that role in our lives. Not that he tries to replace dad but he is there for some very special moments and makes it a point to be part of our lives and our kids lives, checks on us when we have bad days, calls for our birthdays, and gives the best hugs. I am so thankful that God has given us this little gift that helps us feel close to dad. It is amazing the people that God puts in our lives, maybe for a lifetime or maybe just a moment, that make our lives special and even more meaningful.

Change or preparation

(Picture taken by my sister-in-law, Marie)Words to ponder - "No better time arises to count our blessings than when we believe we have none" (Beth Moore). Wow, what an attitude adjuster. Just when we think God has left us out to dry and is making all these changes in our lives we don't understand He reminds us of all the blessings he has given us.
Change is hard no matter what package it comes in; death of a grandparent or parent, moving to a new place or even just a new position with in our job, even a cute little bundle of joy is a change that can be difficult. Change makes us question what we believe and why we believe it and that is why we pray and ground ourselves in His word. At times like this Satan, the Prince of this world, is attacking us from all angles and if we are not well grounded he will knock us right off our feet. He wants us to get lost in the situation and think of how God is changing our lives and how much we hate it, but that is not God's plan for us. Everything we go through is God preparing us. He calls us, prepares us, uses us, prepares us some more and uses us some more. He continues to work on us and shape our heart until we are ready to see His face, the ultimate moment He is preparing us for. This is when He calls us up. He isn't done working on us just when we are old, He determines when He has finished His work in us and calls us up --- even if it doesn't seem like the right time to us.
This is what we have to remember during those times of change/preparation that we find difficult and we don't understand. What is God preparing me for? How is He using my life for His glory? And ultimately, it is not all about me (I know this totally goes against our society these days but deal with it).
So, what do we do in these tough times of change when we just want to cry and don't see the big picture that God is preparing for us? We cry, but cry out to Him. He has big shoulders and can handle it. We count our blessings one by one and remember all He has blessed us with even though we don't deserve it. Remember that "He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my might rock, my refuge" (Psalm 62:6-8). He is personal and He understands our sadness and pain, but He can see the bigger picture and He is telling us, "Trust in me, lean on me, and I will see you through until the end" (yes, this is me putting words in God's mouth, but this is what He tells me in my tough times).
So, is change all bad? No, and I know that if we lean on our rock we will add even more blessings to that list. Does it make it any easier when we are in the thick of the storm, not always, but it does give us the light at the end to help pull us through. What storm are you in right now?

"For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations" Psalm 100:5

So this is why I do this...

So it is no secret that my students are very, VERY, difficult this year. I had the same group last year because I taught 7th grade science and now I teach 8th grade. I have often told them that they are the worst behaved group I have had in 10 (now 11) years of teaching. Individually they are mostly good kids, but together...well I don't want to use that kind of language on my blog :)

I often try to have prayer time for my students because I know that is really what they need. I have to pray about my 1st hour on a very regular basis because they make me crazy and they bring out the worst in me 1st thing in the morning. Well, yesterday was no different. I know I may be the only Christian they meet and, for some of them, the only person who takes and interest in them. Some of them make it very difficult though. Well, I didn't even make it in the door for 1st hour before I had to yell (I mean my big girl voice) and I had to take a phone away from a girl with attitude! Well, by the time I went to take the phone to the office (about 40 minutes later) someone had taken it out of my desk drawer.

My heart just sank into my stomach. Even though my kids can be tough I have always trusted them. I try to treat them with respect and I expect the same from them (I think this is the most important thing my parents did when raising us). Most of their parents don't show them any respect at all, and that is why they don't respect their parents. Well, I was very upset to know that my students would get into my desk and just violate my space like that. I knew who probably did it. I didn't yell, I didn't scream, I just let them know how disappointed and sad I was by their behavior. I reminded them that I would never treat them like that and I was hurt to know they would do that to me. Well, I had really lost some hope when I went home last night questioning why I do this at all.

Well, when I got to school this morning the girl who I thought had taken the phone came to speak to me. She had tears in her eyes and a phone in her hand. She said she couldn't even sleep last night because she felt so bad for going into my desk and knew that I didn't respect her anymore. She said she was so sorry for what she had done and that she accepted her consequences. I reminded her that God had a way of making sure we knew right from wrong and that I had gained a little respect back for her.

I know these girls will make bad choices again, but I realized that I really am making a difference and God has a purpose for me here - no matter how bad it may seem some days.

Never say never

I should have listened to my friend Lollie when she told me years ago to never say never about anything to do with your kids. Well, in true child fashion our sweet little girl is making us out to be a liar all the time.
I remember when we 1st had Madelynn and I thought it was so strange when parents called each other "Mommy and Daddy"...well, that didn't take long to take over our vocabulary. In fact it has been quite awhile since I referred to my husband as,...oh, yeah, Bruce. Oh, I'll never lay my kid down with her bottle, well, guess what, she wouldn't sit still enough to drink it so we had no choice, and how it is a habit....I know. Oh I will never let my kid whine and get her way, well sometimes at the end of the day if that is what makes her happy it seems like survival of the fittest. Oh, I am sure these will not be the last times...Hopefully I learn not to say "Never".

I find it amazing the phrases that come out of our mouths at times. For example, "Oh, Small Potatoes is on, that means I'm late for work" or "Let's Hot Dog dance".
I just love it when Madelynn will do something, like say her name, and then as soon as I try to get her to do it for someone else, she makes me a liar once again. I am sure this is just the beginning of many times we will have to eat our words, i just didn't know it would start so early. Ah, parenthood is such a ride.

Eeeeew!

I don't know how well the sound is (Bruce wants everyone to know that is him doing the dishes in the background) Madelynn is changing her baby's diaper and when she opens it she says, "Eeewww!" It is so funny. She loves to play with her babies and it is so fun to watch her. It is amazing to think that she will be a little mommy someday...granted I don't even want to think of that, I just want her to stay my baby. Confession...I can't even take away her bottle yet. I know, don't yell, she is just my little baby and I love it when she wakes up and asks for a baba milk and signs it at the same time. I promise she won't go to kindergarten with it.

They are never too young...

Well we broke a pot the other night (whole other story) and so I had to vacuum real quick. Then Madelynn got the vacum and proceeded to vacum the rest of the floor. It was so cute. I figure at this rate I could have her folding clothes by the new year. Well, a toy vacum might be in her future.